I NEED TO GET OUT!

arrrrrrghhhhhhhh! I am Damn bored," its raining its pouring the old man is snoring" so cant go out, since I have terrible cold, cant do anything I like,I will end up with pneumonia if I go out again.(since I ate ice cream while walking in the heavy rain, but I don't regret it one bit)
I badly want to go home,I miss sri lanka , I miss my nosy aunties and my annoying little cousins , I miss having conversations with my dad and mum.I Want to have pol sambol with bath and watch a sinhala teledrama ,Why is life so boring when ur alone? spending time with the most annoying little cousin of mine seems to be lot more fun than spending it here in this country...
All my friends go home in weekends and I am left alone in this bloody apartment. I feel like I am in jail.may be jail is better than this.. I don't know what to write even, my mind is a jumble,
I cant go out and enjoy since I am soooooooo broke as well.
I am ALONE,BORED,BROKE n HOME SICK! Can life suck more than this....
I cant take this anymore , need to get out before I go insane!
Wish i could go 10 years back :(

Am I losing u?

Am I losing u little by little,
Because I end up in tears every night,
U say ur helpless but so am I,
Is this fate I ask myself,
Can it be so cruel,
To hurt me like this,
Over and over again,
I am going to lose all my happiness,
My dreams,hopes and specially u,
Ur the one who made me smile
Now ur the one whose making me weep
We are loosing each other,
Even Without a fight,
how can u give up hope,
without even trying at all,

When was the last time u held my hand?
When was the last time we laughed,
If I knew that was it,
I would never have let that moment pass,
So is this the end,
Should I tell u good bye,
knowing that I wont see u or ur sweet smile again,
So many happy memories,
So many promises kept,
Memories will fade,
Promises will be broken,
Time will make us forget it all,
But how long it will take ,
To mend a Broken Heart,
All I am asking u to just give it a try,
For once and for all,
Oh! how I wish this was all a bad dream,
And that tomorrow will dawn bright and new!

Crazy 7!

Aiyooo this tagging business! I am down with a cold, but I don't want to be the last to post this because then i will end up with no one to tag!
I have been tagged by Mees and Acromantula. thanks guys!

The rules:

• Link your tagger and list these rules on your blog.
• Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
• Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
• Let them know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

k now for my weird and random 7

1. I have to apply lotion on my feet at least 10 times a day or I will feel dry and wouldn't be able to fall asleep.

2.I taste SOAP every now and then (new soap before using)

3.I wish I was tall , slim and had straight hair and could wear earrings(yeah i cant wear earrings because my ears gets infected) :((

4. I cant fake smile , If I am angry or mad with someone or dont like speaking to someone ,I cant hide it. My face will give me away.

5.Sometimes I feel jealous when my parents pet my nieces and nephews.

6.I am Addicted to F.R.E.I.N.D.S, I need to watch at least one episode everyday.

7. I think I am psychic (haha) because most of the time ,I can guess what people are thinking and can feel if something is going wrong! actually I have lot of fun because of this.

Since almost everyone is tagged, I am only going to tag Elhamza , Spiced and Thakshila

OMG I FEEL LIKE I LOST THE WORLD'S WORTHIEST GOLD!

I am sad , I dont know what to do, nothing seems to be working. I just want it back!
dont get confused with all my complaining , this is the thing yesterday i went to the SUNWAY water park with my friends and i had sooooooooooo much fun but it ended up in big disappointment!

When I saw the clean blue shimmering water and all those fancy water thingys, I just forgot rest of the world ,I just wanted to Jump in and swim away, and thats exactly what I did, but just as I jumped in I realized that I had my phone inside my pocket , I took it out and it looked fine , but just when I was handing it to my friend who was outside , It slipped drom my hand and went diving in to the water.. but it was soon rescued and kept outside. It looked ok that time and it was working, so I thought, ah its ok and just continued having fun... at the end of the trip only I remembered to check my phone, it wasn't working and it was full of water, my friends tried everything they could, and on the way back we gave it to a phone repair place, the stupid man who was working there just looked at my phone and told it will cost 150RM to repair i said its ok, but then he took out all the parts and applied thinner on it (which by the way ruined my housing )then he just gave me the phone like its a piece of crap telling, "cannot do anything la , its ruined"..
I cried all the way back It was a birthday gift and it was an expensive phone (nokia N76) and it was only 4 months old . I LOVED THE PHONE so much , I dunno why I didn't take care of it properly.
So my BF gave his phone for me to use, but he didn't have one , so i couldn't contact him untill now, it was a very miserable day.
Everyone told to give it to a Nokia service center and today we went to give it to the Nokia service center but it was closed( how lucky am I?), and I tried some other places, they said they can repair it,but i want to give it to Nokia , So my friend told that he will take it there tomorrow , I hope it works. Because I dont feel the same without it and also i dont want to go through the process of choosing a new phone and stuff,anyway my dad will go crazy if I ask him money for a new phone.
Please please I wish and pray It will be ok, because I loved my sweet red phone.

I cant Help Crying :(
Saddest part is I cant blame anyone because It was my mistake!!

A sweet Saturday!

I woke up Saturday morning thinking, oh Its going to be just another typical Saturday , but I didn't know It was going to be the most sweetest Saturday of my life.

As usual me and my friends set off to KL to wonder about, and while we were roaming around in one shopping mall, there was this circus like thingy and there were clowns,people dressed like cartoon characters and many more, and they were giving out balloons of various colors and shapes for FREE!
As always I wanted a balloon, Its not fare that kids only get it right:D? So I was having this sulky face because I wanted a balloon badly.so my BF shouted through the crowd asking for a HEART shaped balloon from the clown.
The clown laughed at us and asked was it for me , then My BF said yes, then clown said u must do something touchy, he thought for a while and said Ok boss all u have to do is Kneel down and give ur gal the balloon (u know like u propose) and the balloon is Yours.
I looked at my Bf and nodded my head saying NO, because there were so many people and I was kinda shy( yeah hehe thats me) I didn't want my MAN to be embarrassed as well, But he knew that I wanted the balloon badly,So he got on one knee and gave me the balloon everyone started applauding and cheering.. I felt soo special and Happy ,IT WAS A WONDERFUL FEELING.. and I realized how much I mean to him.. but my friends were so exited that no one remembered to take a picture of that beautiful moment, but I know it will be one of those moments that u don't need to have a picture to remember! Love u my CYBORG

Gastritis Leading to Stupidity!

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I have hated exams always, its my worst enemy, but today was a nightmare.. I have always been a last minute person and I always have this cramming session i have to do at night if I want to do the exam well, so even though i had 2 days to study I thought that I could do it in one day since it was too easy, and it was midterms after all. anyway what I didn't know was that my body was against it...

I settled down to study after having a nice dinner(yummy pizza) which Is not at all good for me,but I thought ah its only today... anyway while I was studying there was this pain on my right shoulder ,I did some stretches but It didn't go away , anyway the pain got worse and i started shivering and thats all i could remember after a moment I was down on the carpet crawling like a millipede.
there was this shooting pain going up and down my arm and I couldnt do anything to stop it.
since I was alone in the apartment nobody would have come even if I had shouted not that i could have done it at that moment!
Anyway with much struggle I found some gaviscon and gulped half of the bottle and drank lot of water and crawled my way to the bed..
After about 15 mins only I came back to the normal world, Oh god i really thought I was going to die, so thats how a gastric attack feels like!
I called my BF and told what happened , He insisted on going to the doc, I bluffed I was ok since I wanted to study ,But I couldn't concentrate with a burning sensation in my stomach and had a terrible Headache,BF suggested taking a Medical for the exam and sitting it later, But Me being the fool I am told him that I want to finish It off .

So today when i woke up still I had the pain , but ignored It and went to the exam anyway, its the Biggest mistake I did, The paper was a nightmare and the words looked like dancing jelly beans.. And i couldn't think properly my mind was blur.
And there was this one question which I only had to use my general knowledge and I completely made a fool out of my self by trying to answer it, the question was something like this " Why has men resorted to producing chymosin through genetic engineering and not by extracting rennent exam by calf? And u will never believe what My answer was ! It was ' Because extracting the enzyme from the calf will lead to its DEATH! how insanely stupid of me? 2 years of learning biotech and this is what i write?a total waste of time and money
I didn't even look at the rest of the questions, submitted the answer sheet and ran out of the exam hall... after a few minutes only I realized what a blunder I had done,told my friend and we ended up laughing hysterically...

This made me go back to my A/L days a time where I had written much more stupider answers than this(Physics grr).but I have always been serious and good at uni work may be because I love what I do.
I am sure my lecturer will call me on Monday and tell she was disappointed and blah blah! but Its fun to be The don't care stupid person for once than being the nerdy serious person I am..

And by the way gastric is not something you can take easily but its a another post all together!

10 things that makes me happy!

OK I have been tagged by The Cyborg Spy to write about ten random things that makes me happy,I have no idea who started it but a great idea I must say..
It was hard to pick only 10 but here goes,

1.Long talks with my sisters, best friends and Roshi
When ever I call or meet them we speak for hours about everything and anything,We giggle over nothing , it really makes my day!

2. Walking In the rain
I like to do this so much my neighbors used to think I am crazy, I like to watch the rain washing off everything and specially the smell of sand when it rains! mostly I go out in the rain to feel the joy and sorrow and I love the music of the rain drops!3.Sunday mornings back home
I love Sunday mornings because my whole family will be sitting on the couch reading all kind of papers and everyone will be so silent and drinking their tea, I have always loved that moment.. for one moment no one will be worried about getting late for work or missing an appointment.
4.Playing with kids specially with my nieces and nephews
I love this because when i am with them I don't have to act like a grown up, I can just be silly and immature like them and I know they wont judge me or think I am crazy, and specially because they think that I know everything LOL

pics of zara,zagum and Sarah(my nieces and nephew) the sweetest babies I know.
5.Looking at Old photographs
I love to do it because it brings back memories of childhood and so many other things..

6. Listening to Dads and Mums old tales
This has always been one of my favorites because when ever they start telling about how they met and how things started off, how my grandma was against it, I could always see some kind of glow in their faces and Mostly I like the way they refer to their friends as that boy or that gal when actually those people might be 50 something by now....

7.Being with El
These moments are inexpressible

8.Over hearing someone telling something good about me.
this has happened quite a few times, and I couldn't help grinning at those moments.

9.Giving away my Toys to little Kids.
I used to hate this few year ago, but when I see the smile on their faces , It makes me really happy.Now I love giving away my stuff.

10. LOVE EATING ICE CREAM SPECIALLY VANILLA ICE CREAM WITH STRAWBERRY JAM OR CARAMEL Oh yeah and i tag MEESE!