wow It has been a year !

For a long time i have been so lazy to write anything, but now even though I am in middle of exams I really want to write about my special upcoming day :)
Its my first anniversary with my boyfriend on 13th July ,yeah yeah i know 13th i s bad luck , but its much worser we got together on a 13th Friday the unluckiest day ever, but it turned out to be the luckiest day in my whole life...
I have never been in a relationship like this before and I really have no idea what to do. I know we should celebrate it but I don't no how .. I know have to give my man something but I don't no what.. I am confused like hell, because I want this to be the best day ever but I have no idea how..I am pathetic aren't I? I really wish I could go Somewhere romantic and spend the day together and have a candle light dinner under the stars ( yeah I day dream a lot) , but I guess it only happens in movies.
Since it has been the best year in my life I want to celebrate it sooooo much, but the timing is not good because our final exams starts on 18th and also we are TOTALLY broke...Not that I want it to be exotic, I just want it to be sweet and memorable but I have no idea how to..

I am pretty sure my Boy friend is also having the Same thoughts right now, but I guess we have no choice,other than spending our special day just like a another lazy Sunday with lot of cramming .. so much for all our romantic plans :( guess we could celebrate it some other day when we are in a much relaxed and better situation , but it wont be the same..will it?

Anyway what really matters is the love we have for each other isn't it?and I think
I shouldn't be so worried because we will have many more anniversaries to celebrate and this wont be our last.

If u guys have any good ideas for me let me know...
keep blogging :)

I NEED TO GET OUT!

arrrrrrghhhhhhhh! I am Damn bored," its raining its pouring the old man is snoring" so cant go out, since I have terrible cold, cant do anything I like,I will end up with pneumonia if I go out again.(since I ate ice cream while walking in the heavy rain, but I don't regret it one bit)
I badly want to go home,I miss sri lanka , I miss my nosy aunties and my annoying little cousins , I miss having conversations with my dad and mum.I Want to have pol sambol with bath and watch a sinhala teledrama ,Why is life so boring when ur alone? spending time with the most annoying little cousin of mine seems to be lot more fun than spending it here in this country...
All my friends go home in weekends and I am left alone in this bloody apartment. I feel like I am in jail.may be jail is better than this.. I don't know what to write even, my mind is a jumble,
I cant go out and enjoy since I am soooooooo broke as well.
I am ALONE,BORED,BROKE n HOME SICK! Can life suck more than this....
I cant take this anymore , need to get out before I go insane!
Wish i could go 10 years back :(

Am I losing u?

Am I losing u little by little,
Because I end up in tears every night,
U say ur helpless but so am I,
Is this fate I ask myself,
Can it be so cruel,
To hurt me like this,
Over and over again,
I am going to lose all my happiness,
My dreams,hopes and specially u,
Ur the one who made me smile
Now ur the one whose making me weep
We are loosing each other,
Even Without a fight,
how can u give up hope,
without even trying at all,

When was the last time u held my hand?
When was the last time we laughed,
If I knew that was it,
I would never have let that moment pass,
So is this the end,
Should I tell u good bye,
knowing that I wont see u or ur sweet smile again,
So many happy memories,
So many promises kept,
Memories will fade,
Promises will be broken,
Time will make us forget it all,
But how long it will take ,
To mend a Broken Heart,
All I am asking u to just give it a try,
For once and for all,
Oh! how I wish this was all a bad dream,
And that tomorrow will dawn bright and new!

Crazy 7!

Aiyooo this tagging business! I am down with a cold, but I don't want to be the last to post this because then i will end up with no one to tag!
I have been tagged by Mees and Acromantula. thanks guys!

The rules:

• Link your tagger and list these rules on your blog.
• Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird.
• Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
• Let them know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

k now for my weird and random 7

1. I have to apply lotion on my feet at least 10 times a day or I will feel dry and wouldn't be able to fall asleep.

2.I taste SOAP every now and then (new soap before using)

3.I wish I was tall , slim and had straight hair and could wear earrings(yeah i cant wear earrings because my ears gets infected) :((

4. I cant fake smile , If I am angry or mad with someone or dont like speaking to someone ,I cant hide it. My face will give me away.

5.Sometimes I feel jealous when my parents pet my nieces and nephews.

6.I am Addicted to F.R.E.I.N.D.S, I need to watch at least one episode everyday.

7. I think I am psychic (haha) because most of the time ,I can guess what people are thinking and can feel if something is going wrong! actually I have lot of fun because of this.

Since almost everyone is tagged, I am only going to tag Elhamza , Spiced and Thakshila

OMG I FEEL LIKE I LOST THE WORLD'S WORTHIEST GOLD!

I am sad , I dont know what to do, nothing seems to be working. I just want it back!
dont get confused with all my complaining , this is the thing yesterday i went to the SUNWAY water park with my friends and i had sooooooooooo much fun but it ended up in big disappointment!

When I saw the clean blue shimmering water and all those fancy water thingys, I just forgot rest of the world ,I just wanted to Jump in and swim away, and thats exactly what I did, but just as I jumped in I realized that I had my phone inside my pocket , I took it out and it looked fine , but just when I was handing it to my friend who was outside , It slipped drom my hand and went diving in to the water.. but it was soon rescued and kept outside. It looked ok that time and it was working, so I thought, ah its ok and just continued having fun... at the end of the trip only I remembered to check my phone, it wasn't working and it was full of water, my friends tried everything they could, and on the way back we gave it to a phone repair place, the stupid man who was working there just looked at my phone and told it will cost 150RM to repair i said its ok, but then he took out all the parts and applied thinner on it (which by the way ruined my housing )then he just gave me the phone like its a piece of crap telling, "cannot do anything la , its ruined"..
I cried all the way back It was a birthday gift and it was an expensive phone (nokia N76) and it was only 4 months old . I LOVED THE PHONE so much , I dunno why I didn't take care of it properly.
So my BF gave his phone for me to use, but he didn't have one , so i couldn't contact him untill now, it was a very miserable day.
Everyone told to give it to a Nokia service center and today we went to give it to the Nokia service center but it was closed( how lucky am I?), and I tried some other places, they said they can repair it,but i want to give it to Nokia , So my friend told that he will take it there tomorrow , I hope it works. Because I dont feel the same without it and also i dont want to go through the process of choosing a new phone and stuff,anyway my dad will go crazy if I ask him money for a new phone.
Please please I wish and pray It will be ok, because I loved my sweet red phone.

I cant Help Crying :(
Saddest part is I cant blame anyone because It was my mistake!!

A sweet Saturday!

I woke up Saturday morning thinking, oh Its going to be just another typical Saturday , but I didn't know It was going to be the most sweetest Saturday of my life.

As usual me and my friends set off to KL to wonder about, and while we were roaming around in one shopping mall, there was this circus like thingy and there were clowns,people dressed like cartoon characters and many more, and they were giving out balloons of various colors and shapes for FREE!
As always I wanted a balloon, Its not fare that kids only get it right:D? So I was having this sulky face because I wanted a balloon badly.so my BF shouted through the crowd asking for a HEART shaped balloon from the clown.
The clown laughed at us and asked was it for me , then My BF said yes, then clown said u must do something touchy, he thought for a while and said Ok boss all u have to do is Kneel down and give ur gal the balloon (u know like u propose) and the balloon is Yours.
I looked at my Bf and nodded my head saying NO, because there were so many people and I was kinda shy( yeah hehe thats me) I didn't want my MAN to be embarrassed as well, But he knew that I wanted the balloon badly,So he got on one knee and gave me the balloon everyone started applauding and cheering.. I felt soo special and Happy ,IT WAS A WONDERFUL FEELING.. and I realized how much I mean to him.. but my friends were so exited that no one remembered to take a picture of that beautiful moment, but I know it will be one of those moments that u don't need to have a picture to remember! Love u my CYBORG

Gastritis Leading to Stupidity!

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I have hated exams always, its my worst enemy, but today was a nightmare.. I have always been a last minute person and I always have this cramming session i have to do at night if I want to do the exam well, so even though i had 2 days to study I thought that I could do it in one day since it was too easy, and it was midterms after all. anyway what I didn't know was that my body was against it...

I settled down to study after having a nice dinner(yummy pizza) which Is not at all good for me,but I thought ah its only today... anyway while I was studying there was this pain on my right shoulder ,I did some stretches but It didn't go away , anyway the pain got worse and i started shivering and thats all i could remember after a moment I was down on the carpet crawling like a millipede.
there was this shooting pain going up and down my arm and I couldnt do anything to stop it.
since I was alone in the apartment nobody would have come even if I had shouted not that i could have done it at that moment!
Anyway with much struggle I found some gaviscon and gulped half of the bottle and drank lot of water and crawled my way to the bed..
After about 15 mins only I came back to the normal world, Oh god i really thought I was going to die, so thats how a gastric attack feels like!
I called my BF and told what happened , He insisted on going to the doc, I bluffed I was ok since I wanted to study ,But I couldn't concentrate with a burning sensation in my stomach and had a terrible Headache,BF suggested taking a Medical for the exam and sitting it later, But Me being the fool I am told him that I want to finish It off .

So today when i woke up still I had the pain , but ignored It and went to the exam anyway, its the Biggest mistake I did, The paper was a nightmare and the words looked like dancing jelly beans.. And i couldn't think properly my mind was blur.
And there was this one question which I only had to use my general knowledge and I completely made a fool out of my self by trying to answer it, the question was something like this " Why has men resorted to producing chymosin through genetic engineering and not by extracting rennent exam by calf? And u will never believe what My answer was ! It was ' Because extracting the enzyme from the calf will lead to its DEATH! how insanely stupid of me? 2 years of learning biotech and this is what i write?a total waste of time and money
I didn't even look at the rest of the questions, submitted the answer sheet and ran out of the exam hall... after a few minutes only I realized what a blunder I had done,told my friend and we ended up laughing hysterically...

This made me go back to my A/L days a time where I had written much more stupider answers than this(Physics grr).but I have always been serious and good at uni work may be because I love what I do.
I am sure my lecturer will call me on Monday and tell she was disappointed and blah blah! but Its fun to be The don't care stupid person for once than being the nerdy serious person I am..

And by the way gastric is not something you can take easily but its a another post all together!

10 things that makes me happy!

OK I have been tagged by The Cyborg Spy to write about ten random things that makes me happy,I have no idea who started it but a great idea I must say..
It was hard to pick only 10 but here goes,

1.Long talks with my sisters, best friends and Roshi
When ever I call or meet them we speak for hours about everything and anything,We giggle over nothing , it really makes my day!

2. Walking In the rain
I like to do this so much my neighbors used to think I am crazy, I like to watch the rain washing off everything and specially the smell of sand when it rains! mostly I go out in the rain to feel the joy and sorrow and I love the music of the rain drops!3.Sunday mornings back home
I love Sunday mornings because my whole family will be sitting on the couch reading all kind of papers and everyone will be so silent and drinking their tea, I have always loved that moment.. for one moment no one will be worried about getting late for work or missing an appointment.
4.Playing with kids specially with my nieces and nephews
I love this because when i am with them I don't have to act like a grown up, I can just be silly and immature like them and I know they wont judge me or think I am crazy, and specially because they think that I know everything LOL

pics of zara,zagum and Sarah(my nieces and nephew) the sweetest babies I know.
5.Looking at Old photographs
I love to do it because it brings back memories of childhood and so many other things..

6. Listening to Dads and Mums old tales
This has always been one of my favorites because when ever they start telling about how they met and how things started off, how my grandma was against it, I could always see some kind of glow in their faces and Mostly I like the way they refer to their friends as that boy or that gal when actually those people might be 50 something by now....

7.Being with El
These moments are inexpressible

8.Over hearing someone telling something good about me.
this has happened quite a few times, and I couldn't help grinning at those moments.

9.Giving away my Toys to little Kids.
I used to hate this few year ago, but when I see the smile on their faces , It makes me really happy.Now I love giving away my stuff.

10. LOVE EATING ICE CREAM SPECIALLY VANILLA ICE CREAM WITH STRAWBERRY JAM OR CARAMEL Oh yeah and i tag MEESE!

Happy Birthday K!

Happy birthday K, hope you will have a wonderful day filled with joy and laughter.. I miss u so much. And don’t think that u shouldn’t celebrate your special day because I am not there ,go and enjoy with your other lousy friends (ok pooh Kill me later)

I just wanted you to know that, where ever I am I will always be your friend, I don’t care how many friends I have over here ,but if I don’t chat with u one day I feel so down. When I see u signing in to messenger I feel so exited and happy because I want to pour out all kind of crap that happened to me throughout the day.and I know u want to hear it and share ur crappy life as well,

when I am feeling miserable and lonely, the first thing I do is text u, or see whether your online , to rant about my sucking life. Because I know that u will listen to every word and just make me feel better in a second or if that’s impossible u will join my ranting…when I am with u , I don’t have to be scared of misjudgment I, can tell what ever I want and I know u will understand what ever I say(great minds think alike right) or I can just stay silent and u will still get me.

I know even If I call u at 4 AM u will still be happy to hear my voice, and most of all u believed in me when everyone gave up on me, and I am glad I have u, If not for u I wont be the person I am today.your the one who brings out the best in me.
Have a super duper birthday sweetie. Miss u loads. We will celebrate both our birthdays when I come down there in august!

And this video has always reminded me of us!

One Message Recieved.

Most of the time we get exited when we see the one message received sign blinking on our mobiles. Text messages have become a godsend to people who are too busy to write e mails or to make phone calls, who are too scared to apologize or break up face to face.Text messages can also be used to cast a vote for an "American idol or sirasa super star" favorite or to flirt with someone u haven’t even met!

Last night I messaged one of my friends asking her to return my note book. The reply I got was just one letter that was "K" .I knew she was telling OK but suddenly I was thinking oh is she mad at me? Because i felt it’s kind of rude, then I called her and asked hey is everything OK? Are u mad with me?.
Her exact words were "No dear why would I be mad with u? I was too lazy to type that's why I sent just a K"
This is not the first time this has happened to me often my friends think I am mad with them or i think their mad with me because of short messages like "OK. bye. tx, ttyl ".
Text messages are a good way to keep u going, if Ur bored, but if Ur busy u will want to reply in one or two words. But sometimes it will offend the receiver.

Before text messages were introduced we all managed to survive didn't we?
Anyway I think most of the time text messages are convenient only to the sender. take this for an example I have a relationship crisis, and I text my friend telling how I feel, then she texts me back consoling me, then again I reply her, and this can go on like this for for few mins, in a case like this one person will send at least 5 text's, where as the friend had nothing to do with it , she will end up wasting her money as well.
If not for messages we would have used to solve the problem using a phone call, it would have been a bit expensive but lot convenient and fast right? Another thing I have noticed is my spellings have gone bad because of these short messages we use to send, when I was new to text messaging I used to write full words but now to save money and time, I use short words and, I can tell u it has totally ruined my spellings altogether.

Most teenagers are addicted to text messaging, I bet they could send a message with their eyes closed.. I too was addicted to messages few years ago and my mother used to shout at me telling those messages are ruining u.. I guess she was right , now I have limited texting , I do it when there is only a need and I hardly send forwarded messages .I have realized it's all a waste of time and money.

And don't u hate when someone starts texting when Ur in a middle of a conversation.. oh man i just hate it when people do that.

I am not telling text messaging are bad all together, since my family is scattered all around the world sometimes it's hard for me to call, so I keep in touch with messages.
another good thing You can text without disturbing others around you, It is so helpful during movies (but don’t make Ur self to engrossed in text messaging u will end up missing half of the movie), while at work, and anywhere else where voice calls may not be permitted.

Text messages aren't going to wake anyone up, and they will be right there when u wake up in the morning for u to be read. And if u have a room mate it’s a nice way to keep in touch with Ur special someone at night without being a nuisance to anyone..

I think the basic thing we all have to understand here is, that text messaging has its pros and cons, since nothing in this world is perfect, but we should be able to use it intelligently so that we don’t cross the limit and be an addict or a textholic…

Battle of life, here I come!

So far i have lived a very comfortable life, sometimes it had been luxurious as well. but it was nothing to do with me, it all revolved around my fathers success. He was a successful person. he educated all five of us( me and my four elder sisters) to the maximum point. now its time for him to retire. and I am not sure how my life will be after that.. I think it will be the end of my vacations in Maldives the paradise on earth and all other expensive stuff and my comforts,,

I know I should be scared and worried about this , but amazingly I am excited about the whole thing, because this means I will have to be independent and will have to find my way through life, which will be interesting . and even though I am worried that my dad ,the workaholic will be bored to death at home, I am happy that he is getting a rest . He is not in the age for heavy work stress despite what he says. LoL. Anyway I am eager to find out how successful I can be in life. I know it's not an easy road but we all should start travelling it someday, right?

Its a relief to know that I am surrounded by so many loved people who are willing to lend a hand along the way. I don't know what my future holds for me, but I am eager to find out. in few more months I will have to take matters in to my hand and start my journey through life ,which will have loads of ups and downs..
I Think this is what I have been preparing myself for 22 years right? and my dad and mum have been the role models of my life so if I go in their foot steps, I don't think I will fail.
Its scary but I am confident I will be able to handle it well. because I will have a shoulder to cry on when things go wrong...

This is what one of my elder sisters said when she got to know the news
WELCOME TO OUR SIDE OF THE WORLD!REAL LIFE SUCKS,BUT U WILL LOVE IT. I hope I will too. GOOD LUCK TO ME. Battle of life here i come!

Can i be ur friend??? Ah let me know ur race first!

My parents brought up me according to my race, but they never under estimated any other religion or never did they tell me not to make friends with children of another race. I was free to make my own Friends,. I have written about my best friends in an earlier post. And what i forgot to tell there (because it never occurred to me that much until now) is that we 4 are from 3 different races. But it was never a big deal to me. sometimes it was kind of hard when it came to dress codes and parties because i have some restrictions there, but my friends understood that and respected my individuality never did they laugh or criticized me. So in my life up to now i have never been bothered or tortured by racism (other than by few school teachers) i think i was lucky to have such understanding friends.

Now I’m in uni and life is quite different from school and it’s quite hard to find good friends like back at home. And I have seen many people suffering because of the racism issue. My uni is full of people from different races and the main thing I see is, nobody likes to mingle with the Africans, and, it bothers them a lot and they feel like an outcast and most of them have lost their self confidence. I have two great African friends. They help me in every way. Another thing is most of the time Africans stick together with Africans, Indians with Indians, Malays with Malays and Chinese with Chinese.
Pathetic isn’t it I thought the whole idea of an international university with so many different races is about interacting with each other. Guess I was wrong!

Even if u try to be good friends with people of other races sometimes it doesn’t go that well. Because In the long run u will come across some racial thing no matter how good the friends are. Sometimes they will all go partying and will forget to tell u. they all will talk the same language and u won’t understand anything and they will rarely talk in English. They will remember to give everyone a birthday gift but u. and most of the time u will be left behind. They will forget u exist and criticize ur religion in front of u.Wont these things make u wonder and question your self? Won’t u tend to think that they don’t like your company? And really don’t care a damn about your friendship or your feelings? Sometimes they may be not knowing that they are hurting u it’s just that they care more about they are own kind.

What should be the reason that people like to stick with people from they are own race and give more priority to them? Is it because it’s more comfortable and more convenient? Or is it something that they do involuntarily? Or is it the way they were brought up?

I really don't know whether there are answers to all these questions. How can people judge or make friends according to a skin color or a race.. Can’t it be only about caring, sharing and fun? Why can’t we enjoy our differences? And treat each person according to his individuality without grouping him to a color or race first

Consider this merely as a blog and nothing else.everything i have told here is NOT from my experiences so do not question me!

Ah I did it all by myself!

Months ago I bought this cloth rack and I was unable to assemble it because I didn’t have a hammer , many people promised me that they would do it for me, but yet two months later it's still there lying in my room all scattered up just like my clothes( because DHU!! I don’t have cloth rack). So today when I woke up I thought, why do I always depend on others, screw them, i will do it by myself and anyway I didn’t have anything better to do since it was a long holiday and I was the only one trapped in the apartment. Since I didn’t have a hammer I used my dumbbells instead and after struggling with it for about an hour I was done, and i was sweating like a pig! and Even though I damaged my finger in the process ,I felt happy and proud of myself because I was able to do a mans job myself.. But I do wish I had done this long time ago it would have saved me many minutes which I wasted while searching my socks and shawl in a jumble of clothes in the morning, when I was already late for Lab… anyway the lesson I learnt today Is I should try to be independent and do my stuff by myself,,,, it reminded me of the old saying “If there is a will there’s a way”!!

I will Love u till the End!

Sometimes I wonder.
How come u love me so much.
U never get fed up or mad.
Not even when i get out of hand.
U always make me calm.
with a sweet Little joke.
and forget all the mean things.
in less than a second.
when I am all worn out of crying.
U look at me with Ur charming eyes.
and whisper that U will love me forever.
No matter how crazy i get.
Then u hug me tight and.
buy me an ice cream.
That is my favorite part of our fights.
Darling i just wanted u to know.
I am so sorry.
I never mean anything i tell.
My tongue is out of control.
just as me and my mind.
No matter how crazy and stupid i get.
Remember,
I will love u till the end!

Singapore , I expected MORE!

Last week i went on a vacation to Singapore and i was so exited, obviously because everyone told me that it's a wonderful place.. so i was looking forward to see a spic and span city without dirt. But it was a total disaster from the time we landed..
first the hotel we booked told that we only booked for 2 when actually we had booked for 3 and when my dad asked whether we could change it in to a family room , they said NOOOOOOO, i donno why was that though, we were exhausted and had no place to go, then after about hour we found this place which was an apartment like place which was very very clean and EXPENSIVE it was 115$ per night, which was same as a 3 star hotel , then anyway since we were so tired we took it, guess what the room was two storey one, my place was upstairs with a bed and a chair, i could hardly stand in that place because every time i stood up i banged my head .

Anyway the next day dad wanted to take me to SENTOSA ISLAND which i was very looking forward to, the Hotel ppl told that taking the bus was easier and cheaper so we took it, but when we got inside the bus , the driver shouted at us to get down because we didnt have exact change. DUH! actually we had but he didnt give us anytime to find it, how the hell were we supposed to know that we had to have exact change and anyway we didnt know the fare either, my dad was soooooo pissed he said let's take a taxi , i think that's the way Singaporeans show hospitality...
Anyway Senthosa was nothing like i expected, i have seen much nicer places here in malaysia, believe me SUNWAY in malaysia is 10000 times better..

Then in the evening we went to Little India, that place made me faint, it was so smelly and filthy it was like i was in chennai, covered with dirt, and it smelt like rotten meat.. and even though i heard u were not supposed to spit on the road , i saw many doing so... my father was like Oh God! what happened to Singapore it was not like this 5 years ago.

I have to say Orchard road was very nice and clean , that part was like Singapore. i hope it remains so!
I donno whether u guys have seen but I have seen these huge bragging adds about MDIS in srilankan papers, telling what a great place it is, and i saw the place it didnt look that great to me..

Stuff is overly expensive there, one parata(roti) is 2$ where as in Malaysia its only 0.90 cents in Rm, and by the way to keep u in track 1 sing$=2.5Rm..

Once one of my friends told me that even Singapore air is so much nicer but this time i went, i only felt dust and smoke... so i clearly made up i mind to cut off Singapore from my holiday destinations!

Who is guilty

OK this is something we had to discuss in our work place communication class, and there were some heated arguments about this , so thought of getting u guys opinion as well . OK this is the story , a 16 year old year kid is caught by the police for drug trafficking, and when he was questioned ,he told that he did it to help his father to pay a loan he took from a lone shark ( a place who loans u money with a HUGE interest and which is illegal) because the lone shark has threatened to kill the father if not. so in Ur opinion who is Guilty? the boy (who is still a minor) , the father or the lone shark. and what should be the punishment for the guilty party??

TRY TO MIND UR OWN BUSINESS

Why do people have to be so cynical these days.. why cant they mind there own business? Why do most people think that they are perfect? What if I am skinny or Fat? What is their bloody problem..
Have u ever heard someone telling,”oh my god loook how fat she is”? “or ewwwww she is so skinny”, “she is so dark, his hair looks weird”, oh why is she/he wearing that it looks horrible. What the hell, it’s their own wish. Not as if their making others uncomfortable right?

when ever I see my nosy relatives I here this phrase alot oh !u have gone fat... grrr and when they see my cousin ,they will go ohhhhhh god gal try to gain some weight u look sooooooooo thin.. At one time i wanted to shout at one aunt telling GET LOST U COW. But since I am not in a community like that I had to give the plastic smile and go away dragging my cousin..
people telling you how u look to your face is quite ok, sometimes some people who really care about u do that to make u look better, but it really hurts when u hear someone back biting and laughing about u. I know some don’t think too much, they tell what they think out loud , but next time u come close to doing something like that , think how she/he will feel if she / he hears u. believe me if u here someone telling something bad about u , u will understand about the feeling I am talking about.

When I was in Grade 1, there was this dark girl and everyone called her KALU APPE (black hopper) but even at that time I thought she had a nice smile, I was the only one who played with her most of the time...I think its the way we have been told, from small days we have this concept in our minds that dark is ugly and fair is prettier, and many more like that. But for me I find dark gals more attractive, most of the time they have a hidden beauty inside themselves...

So whether your Dark or fair, fat or thin, Just know that there is someone, at least one person in your life who loves u for who u are, and not for how u look (it can be your mother ,father ,sister friend, boy friend girl friend , anyone). Always remember that beauty is skin deep..

I am not telling I haven’t done it, I sometimes do comment on peoples dress ‘s or hair styles, but not about they are body or skin color, never in my life. I don't judge people by they are outer appearance, but by what they are inside. So from today onwards I will try my best to, not to comment bad about others... hope u will too!

THERE IS NO DISTANCE TOO FAR BETWEEN BEST FRIENDS, FOR FRIENDSHIP GIVES WINGS TO THE HEART.

When everything goes wrong Friends are the one I turn to, there are 3 women in my life ,who has been there for me through my ups and downs. The special thing about these three women is that they know each other through me and they are not best friends themselves, but when ever we meet they get along very well...

One of them is my childhood friend A, the weird part is we were only in the same school for few years, but all the years which we were apart we wrote to each other (I still have those letters filled with huge letters and spelling mistakes) for this 15 years we have known each other , I cant find a day we were mad at each other.

Then there is N who has been my friend for 10 years, she has been an amazing friend to me. She is the most easygoing person I ever met she can brighten my day just like that...

Then there is K who stuck out A/L s with me, K was my savior, she was the one who did all my biology drawings, saved me from being embarrassed from the most torturing chemistry teacher in the world, and the plots we made on Saturday mornings to bunk classes were almost all the time successful. Even though the 2 years of A/L is the most horrible years of a person, K made it so much easier and happier. But I do have to mention how many times we have got mad at each for stupid things.

These three women have been victims of my mood swings, because I only torture people whom I love, who I know wont get fed up of me. If u ask my family they will tell what a fuss pot I am. They love me for what I am, when ever I felt stupid and ugly they had a way of making me special and wanted..

Last night while going through some old Photographs I Realized how much I love my Gals and how much I miss them, it reminded me of a time before boy Friends and breakups (but at times like that we were great at making those idiots feel like jerks), A life which was filled with ditching assembly's and sport practices....Magical school days which are over forever.

Even though now we are oceans apart, its amazing how we can catch up when ever we meet from the place we left off.. People will come and go in my life but my gals will always be there with me ,because we have a special bond that won’t be easy to be broken or forgotten. LOVE U GALS!

Premarital Sex

Premarital Sex is Forbidden in most religions.WHY is it frowned upon so much! If we go according to Nature we should be married around 16 or so because that's when we hit puberty. but now with the competitive world it's almost impossible and funny to get married at that age. Face it we all are humans so it doesn't mean that we don't get the need until we are married. In olden days people got married very young so there were very less problems about Premarital sex, but today its different most men get married after 30 and women around 25 .Men who ,are in there thirties wont be probably keeping there virginity until they get married, I am not telling everyone is like this but most wont. After all the messages we receive from most TV shows and movies these days tells us "everyone is doing it, right?so most youngesters must be confused and probably having the wrong picture about the whole thing. so after reading some articles i got some information about what some religions tell about Premarital sex, hope you guys would find it interesting and Useful.

Buddhism
Buddhists believe that sex before marriage is not immoral if there is love and consent between the two parties involved. According to Buddhist precepts, as long as the act of sex does not cause harm to you or another person in any way, it is permissible.

Hinduism
Hinduism's received moral traditions about premarital sex are rooted in its concept of the stages of life. One of these stages is the life of the celibate student, which precedes the stage of the married householder. Celibacy is considered the appropriate behavior for both male and female students (or unmarried singles who have left school). Hinduism holds this view not because it regards sex as inherently sinful, but because of this belief in certain life stages.

Islam
According to the Qur'an, "the believers are...those who protect their sexual organs except from their spouses... Therefore, whosoever seeks more beyond that [in sexual gratification], then they are the transgressors." (23:5-6). Muslim scholars say this statement "makes it very clear that any sexual gratification outside marriage is considered a transgression of the law of God."

Catholic

The Catholic church teaches that situations where sex occurs outside of marriage "offend against the dignity of marriage; they destroy the very idea of the family; they weaken the sense of fidelity. They are contrary to the moral law. The sexual act must take place exclusively within marriage. Outside of marriage it always constitutes a grave sin and excludes one from sacramental communion."

Even though it is Hard to suppress your feelings and desires when your with the love of your life, I think one should keep ones virginity Until marriage, because from what I have heard and read Sex after marriage is the most wonderful experience ever, why spoil it and mess it up? and think of all the risks and

headaches you will have to go through ? fear of pregnancy, fear of disease and by any chance if you wont be able to marry the same person think of the guilt you will be carrying in your heart everyday when your with your husband or wife later on !

Marriage is a sacred thing between two pepol which is built with love and trust.the bond between a husband and a wife gets stronger with the shared intimacy. its best not to spoil it and loose the spark....so folks Save it for sthe most heavenly and unforgetable day of your life!!

Half dressed women

Last weekend while I was hanging out with my friends in a shopping mall I saw this huge lady wearing a very tight extremely short, short . it was like almost as she was naked , I wanted to throw up there itself. the best part was her husband or boyfriend or someone was walking holding hands with her so happily. my question is ,is this man blind? I mean doesn't he care that the whole world is looking at his lady . this is not the first time I have come across situations like this, many times i have seen gals wearing reveling clothes and walking as if they are exhibits . don't they have parents? husbands? or someone who cares about them. when a daughter goes out from home half naked what kind of a father will keep quiet?(i wish only a dumb one)
some of u must think I am narrow minded , but this is how I feel. I feel a woman's beauty is precious and should not be exhibited..it cant be because i was brought up that way , because most of my friends back in SL and my Indian friends over here dress modestly... it make them more beautiful and respectful.. even though men are happy to have these kind of women to flirt about I don't think most of them would want a women like this to be their WIFE.
because these women are only a pass time for them , when it comes to the role of wife , most men want a HOMELY girl..once upon a time I had this friend who told that he doesn't care whether his gal friend was with clothes or without clothes as long as she looked HOT!!! and same goes for all the men who are going around holding hands with underly dressed women, they want the world to know how good their girl friend looks,just to show off. I don't know where is the world going today.. what happened to all the traditions and the modesty of women.. women are loosing the respect they used to get by themselves...
Let me know what is your opinion on this!

VALENTINES DAY

Valentines Day! What’s the big deal? I always thought like that. Some soppy couples exchanging cards, choc and flowers. That’s all it was for me few years ago. but then this year it was different , I had the perfect guy in my life. when 14 th of February was approaching I felt exited , I wanted to give something to H I wanted to show I loved him, I kept in my mind to make him something , but with college work it kind of slipped my mind and on 13th night I was left with nothing..
so I searched through my stuff and found some card making stuff, then when I went to get my bag it was missing SHOOT all my things were inside that, pencils, pens glue everything , I must have left it in canteen or somewhere or someone must have stolen my bag , anyway I was left with a blank white card , suddenly I got an idea I took my Pink lipstick and started making the white card PINK in one hour I had something u could call a card . somewhat satisfied. I waited till 12 midnight looking at my mobile. there were no messages . 12.30 still nothing.. I knew he had a midterm tomorrow and was studying but does it take that long to send one TEXT? Around 1 am I got mad and called him, he was like im so busy dear,, I said anyway I wanted to meet him in ten mins.. After all it was Valentines Day right?
So when I met him I gave him the card and the Big choc I bought, he laughed in a good way at the card said thanks and went back to his room.
I was kind of hurt THATS IT? I thought. I thought may be in the morning he would give me something. Don’t think I am crazy I just wanted my Boy friend to show me some love...
Anyway in the morning it was almost as usual as any other day. but not for other people who were madly in love, there was a request show in college, everywhere happy gals carrying flowers, and I really lost my patience when I saw a guy hiding near his gals room to surprise her with blue and pink tulips (I think it was tulips) it was so beautiful, at that moment my phone rang and it was Mr. H, he asked me what's wrong u seem to be pretty dull the whole day.
I got so mad I yelled at him telling don’t u realize its VALENTINES DAY. Is it so hard for u to say HAPPY VALENTINES DAY? Then he told me, u know I don’t believe in this stupid day? I didn’t think it mattered to u so much I am sorry ill make it up for u somehow. I thought whatever and hung up
That night all my friends were showing the gifts they got for valentines and I was so jealous and I thought wow aren’t they lucky?

But after two days one of my friends were dumped, another friend was cheated. Then only I realized how lucky I am? I had this wonderful guy who would do anything for me , who would tie my shoe lace in the middle of the road, who cares for my mum and dad as much as I do. Who doesn’t even let me do my own laundry, who makes me soup when I’m sick. Who never lets me be alone, Who loves me for what I am , a guy who is so supportive, loving and caring..
Does it matter that he doesn’t celebrate Valentines Day? after all its just another day!! I figured out that in his life he doesn’t need to have a special day to love me or show his love, because every minute of every hour he shows it in so many ways.

Away from home

I always wanted to do my Degree overseas, somewhere far from home, where my mum and dad couldn't nag me, where i could do things my own way, where i could sleep at 4 am and get up at 12 noon , basically a land without rules...can say it was one of my fantasies.

Anyway now i am so many miles away from home ,and yes i can sleep at anytime i want ,wake up at any time, go for class or simply chill out with my friends .believe me there's no one to shout at me, I could eat all the JUNK I want , go anywhere I want at anytime, freedom is unlimited...

Life is much easy over here, no crowded buses with conductors yelling "passata yanda paasata yanda",no perverts in buses trying to take advantages of my innocence, no smokey roads with dust all around me, its quite a nice place to live...
But after living one year here, do u know what i realised? "There's no place better than home"
I miss my mums nagging , miss her yummy food, back then I would have given anything to switch my stringhoppers for KFC chicken, now I would give anything to have stringhoppers,
I miss the sandwiches that mum used to pack for me every morning,
I miss having a nice girl talk in SINHALA, miss fighting for the remote with my sisters.

I am not telling college life is bad , its nice to hangout at night and keep talking , go to midnight movies and eat fast food,but sometimes what ever u do or how many great friends u have, u feel a bit left out when your not local.

I miss being looked after, i miss being home.I crave for one of those long conversations with my girl friends.most of all it kills me to come back to an empty room at the end of the day.
I wish I had someone to yell at me when I'm on the phone with my boy friend late at nigh.

You know what ? now I really miss the rules at home,, I soooo want to sleep at 10 pm and get up before 7 am.I want to have a proper breakfast, lunch and dinner. I want to make fun of mum and make her mad, I want to help dad with marketing.
I so so so wanna hangout with my friends at MC (LOL)

If your home right now, u don't know how lucky you are , to get your parents care and love , to be looked after ,to be totally dependant on them. I miss being at home.
I really wish i was in galleface with my family eating "isso wade" right now...
Its almost 6 am now so i better go to bed.
Bye for now